Before I get into this post I would love to say I hope you all had a very HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!!!!!! Okay, let’s get into it
I know, I know it’s been a while. It’s been a little over 4 months now and I just have to say I’ve missed this. I got really busy at the beginning of March with my yearly volunteer work at my local middle school and it really kicked my butt this year. It felt very nice to have a lot more responsibilities and it opened my eyes to a career path that I have thought of but never looked into or seriously thought about before now.
For the past 8 years I have gone back to my old middle school to help their drama productions, each time I have been more involved and invested more time. This year was the pinnacle of all shows for me; it was the first time I had a future stake in it. Theater has always been a part of my life, even when I was young but only now has it emerged as a future career opportunity for me. I was able to build my first big set piece, a 10-ft window that could be walked through on stage and taken off stage. (On a bar called a batten). Being able to make something that large was really cool and such a great experience for me to learn new skills I will need in the future. Now I got a part time job that will allow me to add to my resume and use some skills actually in the field! I am so excited to start this next part of my work life.
Aside from that I finally got to see a new doctor in my search to find a PCP. For months now I have been looking for a new PCP since I am too old to go to a pediatrician and never actually tried to find one before now. What makes my current situation a little more needy than before is the desire to start hormones and eventually get top surgery down the road. Ever since I came out last year I have not been looking forward to finding a new doctor and having all this new information about me that is nowhere in my medical files was a bit daunting to be honest. I was also worried about not finding someone that I felt comfortable with.
I had a friend message me telling me about his experience with his doctor and I thought it would be worth a try to see how I was with her and had a video call. It was so awesome! I felt lighter and happier after we hung up and I cannot tell you the last time I left a doctor's appointment feeling like that. She asked me a bunch of questions about my journey with gender and wanted to get me my script for T as soon as she could. I’m writing this on a Saturday night and it’s really exciting to think that in less than 24 hours I will officially take my first dose!!! It is super exciting and super nerve racking at the same time.
All I know is that I cannot wait for this next chapter of my life and all that comes with it. Doing new things that will eventually make me into the person I’d like to be has always been something I’ve struggled with and now that I’m finally here it is all so surreal. Having my girlfriend and friends and family in my corner through all of this means the world, especially because I know that there are a bunch of people that aren’t as lucky as I am to have so many amazing people in their lives. For anyone reading this that might fall into one of those categories, thank you from the bottom of my heart. Your support means everything to me